It’s been a pretty rough last week.. Everyone’s stressed out, I’m making dumb mistakes, girls are PMSing like crazy, just not fun.. Aunt and I keep bumping heads.. Not like I mean to. I hate fighting with her, she’s very good at it. Fighting. She knows exactly what to say and how to say things that’ll hurt. I don’t think she does it on purpose, sometimes I push her too far.
I’m gonna really try to be good. I don’t wanna be an added stress to aunc. If anything I wanna just be here to help them. I hate being belittled in every size shape and form. Today I confessed to aunt a lot of things… It was a beautiful moment of her yelling at me, me taking it, me gathering all my thoughts and then spilling. We both ended up crying and apologizing to each other.
Crazy how we can be filled with anger and rage one second, then hugging it out the next. Squashed. In seconds.
She’s really like the mom I never had. And later on when I become successful and stable, I’ll show her my gratitude. I know I’ll never be able to pay her back. With everything my aunt and uncle are doing for me, teaching me everyday skills to become a better person, providing what my parents back in md couldn’t, and really wanting the very best for me.
I’ll never be able to pay them back.
But I’ll have to think of something.
Nick your picture and cover came in today. Your plate looks so cool. Never knew you could include a picture on one. It’s been rough Minho. On your mom, Hejin. Really rough. Like I told your mom, ok one week, doubly bad the next.
Show us another heart in the sky. Send us good vibes. Something! We miss you so much baby cousin.
I’ll try harder, I keep getting distracted and I need to wake up and smell the coffee myself.
Rest in paradise baby bro.
Forever till infinity-